today has been a screwed up day..started the day sucky..had many little things happen throughout the day that pissed me off and the day ended with a "big bang"..
i realised once again after such a long while that it's very difficult to please you..no matter what i do..it's never to your liking..i spent my whole life trying to please you and it's getting very tiring..finally said what i really felt..what i have always wanted to say but didn't find the right words to..sorry that i broke down in front of you and i know that you are hurting now..that you are disappointed..in fact i have always been a disappointment to you..i never meet your expectations even how hard i try..you never said it but i feel like a failure in your eyes..i have loads of things i wanna say..but everything is jumbled up..in bits and pieces..can't seem to bring them to words..
some random words that i'm thinking of..
irresponsible, narrow-minded, patience, misunderstood, miscommunication, left out, assumptions, failure, unappreciated, bossed, defensive, excuses, distrust...blahblahblah...
Unveiled: Tamar
TheseAreAFewOfMyFavouriteThings_
Dark chocolate.
There's no need for explanations!
Counting money.
Who doesn't?
Art.
I love how the way you can express your emotions be it in a dance form or a piece of painting. And no words are needed for it! Awesome!
Semi-precious stones.
It's so much more unique..individualistic. There are so many different kinds of it around, just like how there are so many of us around and each and every one of us are different in our own good way.
Anything vintage.
Yes, there's a granny in me. Old things just makes me feel so much for it. Junk furniture, vintage flowery patchworked apparels and decor. All of it!
Old worn-out photographs.
Isn't it just heartwarming? To dig out those old photos that have been accumulating cobwebs in that small little dingy cupboard at that corner of your room, and just indulge in reminiscence.
Walking alone.
Sometimes, life is so tiresome and busy that I just want to take a slow stroll and let my poor sense of direction lead me to wherever it takes me and just admire everything else that's around.
My blanket aka nappy.
This is embarrassing...
Music.
I can just sit anywhere and listen to my mp3 for the whole day oblivious to my surroundings. It has this amazing ability to make me high and make me cry. I just wish that there's a mp3 out there with a longer lasting battery life.
Dance.
People who know me will know.
Friends.
Yes, the tv sitcom. Everyone loves it, no? I can watch it a million and one times and still find it funny. Hmm..who knows? Maybe all the twists and tangles in my life will end well. Just like Friends. Peace!
Crying.
Treatment: for extra relief and emotional detoxification. Side effects: may cause soreness, redness and sometimes harmful to one's pride.
Still, a highly recommended medication. Don't be a wussy and try it sometimes!
Shopping...
I know..I know..only girls will ever understand how it can actually be so highly therapeutic at times..*smirks*
The list goes on. There are so many things I love/love doing. Sometimes, you need the crazy dramatic things in life to make one truely see all the beauty that plays a part in it.