argh!!!! it's so frustrating!! so fcuking angry.......both at myself and at you!! can you just stop talking???? why can't you understand?!?!?! you ask why can't i understand..but can i shoot the question back at you???? why do this to yourself?? everything i do or not you have to nag and nag and nag...can't you just give us all some space for ourselves to live our lives??? give me a fcuking break...what's your problem?!?! it's not like i can't differentiate what's right from wrong..what's important and what's not...i know it well enough to lead a proper and normal life...argh!!! is it so difficult to shut up?? to close one eye??!?!?!? i've never been so crazy in my life..that was just insane..i can't believe i did that...i just can't..i couldn't control it..i couldn't control myself..my temper..my actions...my tears..you were just driving me up the wall i just went bonkers...i was shivering...so crazy till i shivered...i wasn't thinking straight...i thought i was going to insane..you know..IMH insane...couldn't believe it myself....thought i was going to lose the hair...after all the pulling....couldn't believe it...
everyday..you know..everyday....even after so many times of this...you still can't get it...even after so many people told you...it's something so minor....so fcuking minor!!!!! it's not even worth it..!!! so worthless!! but why get so worked up about it????!?!!?!?! aurgh!!! after what i did..it only made me feel bad...so bad...so shitty...i couldn't help but cry..cry like a baby..maybe worse..i felt like a retard..like some crazy woman..just unsightly..i don't even know if i'll be forgiven for it...i'm a lousy ********..so lousy....i just wanna leave and run away...just like you said....leave...it would be better right...for you...for everyone..no more troubles...no more worries....thought so too myself...
fcuk! FCUK!!!!!! FcuKK!!!!
Unveiled: Tamar
TheseAreAFewOfMyFavouriteThings_
Dark chocolate.
There's no need for explanations!
Counting money.
Who doesn't?
Art.
I love how the way you can express your emotions be it in a dance form or a piece of painting. And no words are needed for it! Awesome!
Semi-precious stones.
It's so much more unique..individualistic. There are so many different kinds of it around, just like how there are so many of us around and each and every one of us are different in our own good way.
Anything vintage.
Yes, there's a granny in me. Old things just makes me feel so much for it. Junk furniture, vintage flowery patchworked apparels and decor. All of it!
Old worn-out photographs.
Isn't it just heartwarming? To dig out those old photos that have been accumulating cobwebs in that small little dingy cupboard at that corner of your room, and just indulge in reminiscence.
Walking alone.
Sometimes, life is so tiresome and busy that I just want to take a slow stroll and let my poor sense of direction lead me to wherever it takes me and just admire everything else that's around.
My blanket aka nappy.
This is embarrassing...
Music.
I can just sit anywhere and listen to my mp3 for the whole day oblivious to my surroundings. It has this amazing ability to make me high and make me cry. I just wish that there's a mp3 out there with a longer lasting battery life.
Dance.
People who know me will know.
Friends.
Yes, the tv sitcom. Everyone loves it, no? I can watch it a million and one times and still find it funny. Hmm..who knows? Maybe all the twists and tangles in my life will end well. Just like Friends. Peace!
Crying.
Treatment: for extra relief and emotional detoxification. Side effects: may cause soreness, redness and sometimes harmful to one's pride.
Still, a highly recommended medication. Don't be a wussy and try it sometimes!
Shopping...
I know..I know..only girls will ever understand how it can actually be so highly therapeutic at times..*smirks*
The list goes on. There are so many things I love/love doing. Sometimes, you need the crazy dramatic things in life to make one truely see all the beauty that plays a part in it.