Confusion is all that's in my head. Went to see the doc today and he told me i'm stressed and dehydrated. And to make things worse, i'm having a practical test and two written tests tomorrow. What am i doing now? Blogging. All i can think of is my dream and that's it. I don't know if i should change course in poly or go straight for what my mind and soul longs for. If i do, is that the right move? I mean, imagine if i do change course, i'll be spending on 4 years of school fees that aren't exactly peanuts to me. And after that i'll still have to pay full price of the school fees of what i really want. But if i dont switch course and stay, i'll probably break down and collapse one day. And if i do go for my dream, what if i don't succeed? What if i'm just not ready for it? What about my friends and the life i've just gotten used too? I'm surely gonna miss it. If only i can just get an answer now. I'm not gonna be able to hang in there much longer. *sighs*
I'm like supposed to be studying now, considering how much information that hasn't gotten into my head. But i f***ing can't. My brain juice is getting pathetically little as the days go by and i can't seem to do anything about it. Not even a drop of motivation exists in me now. *sighs again*
**If only someone can just save me from my misery and catch me when i'm falling**
Unveiled: Tamar
TheseAreAFewOfMyFavouriteThings_
Dark chocolate.
There's no need for explanations!
Counting money.
Who doesn't?
Art.
I love how the way you can express your emotions be it in a dance form or a piece of painting. And no words are needed for it! Awesome!
Semi-precious stones.
It's so much more unique..individualistic. There are so many different kinds of it around, just like how there are so many of us around and each and every one of us are different in our own good way.
Anything vintage.
Yes, there's a granny in me. Old things just makes me feel so much for it. Junk furniture, vintage flowery patchworked apparels and decor. All of it!
Old worn-out photographs.
Isn't it just heartwarming? To dig out those old photos that have been accumulating cobwebs in that small little dingy cupboard at that corner of your room, and just indulge in reminiscence.
Walking alone.
Sometimes, life is so tiresome and busy that I just want to take a slow stroll and let my poor sense of direction lead me to wherever it takes me and just admire everything else that's around.
My blanket aka nappy.
This is embarrassing...
Music.
I can just sit anywhere and listen to my mp3 for the whole day oblivious to my surroundings. It has this amazing ability to make me high and make me cry. I just wish that there's a mp3 out there with a longer lasting battery life.
Dance.
People who know me will know.
Friends.
Yes, the tv sitcom. Everyone loves it, no? I can watch it a million and one times and still find it funny. Hmm..who knows? Maybe all the twists and tangles in my life will end well. Just like Friends. Peace!
Crying.
Treatment: for extra relief and emotional detoxification. Side effects: may cause soreness, redness and sometimes harmful to one's pride.
Still, a highly recommended medication. Don't be a wussy and try it sometimes!
Shopping...
I know..I know..only girls will ever understand how it can actually be so highly therapeutic at times..*smirks*
The list goes on. There are so many things I love/love doing. Sometimes, you need the crazy dramatic things in life to make one truely see all the beauty that plays a part in it.
